feeling lonely
as i see how
i often feign
doing for others,
caring for others
when the little i
is wanting
something for itself...
yet i feel...
others seem to feel...
we have beingness...
beingness longing for union
provoking a sense of loneliness in the false joining
with this longing for true belonging.
If, in my knowing
of my divinity,
if, in my eternal
spiritual soulfullness
i can experience
this sense of loneliness
so must the
Source of my Being (God)
have the capacity
for this sense
of loneliness?
just a bit of logic!
i cannot feel
what 'AllThatIs'
cannot feel...
otherwise i make
myself separate
and apart from 'AllThatIs.. ..'
logically this is an
impossibility? ??
yet, ideas cannot leave
their Source and must i be connected still to ‘AllThatIs’ so loneliness can not in truth existexcept a trick
i play upon Myself
"My experience of loneliness is the result of self exclusion – painted out upon the screen of the world.
God wills not to be alone.
The Will of God is Giving.
When I exclude myself I have not the power or capacity to do so – only an intent that seems to be something but is merely self exclusion effort. Whatever it may seem to be in the light of some way of thinking – it remains less than the joyful whole souled flow of being that I Am.
Within the play of self limitation there is a sense of self that thinks it thinks. Mistaken identity with this thought leads to perfectly logical inversion – where all things flow lawfully from an ungrounded premise. This is like making a shadow out of light in which something seems to be and the desire to find it seems promising. Is not fear the prayer for love – as yet unmasked? Is not loneliness the perfect love for the Father – as yet unrevealed?
Logic can seem inexorable – but always always – the starting presumption must be brought to light.
Then is logic no less perfectly proving a new now.
These are my joining thoughts with you Michael.
They are not the result of a lofty mind – but a willingness to think beyond experience.
Or “letting the mind that was in Christ Jesus be in me” especially when in experience of ‘proof of selfishness and folly’."
in Gratitude
Brian
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